Thank you, Jo. It is one year and three days later, but I needed your words so badly this a.m., as I struggle with family members' illnesses. Some directly related, mine and others direct and as a result of this terrible disease. I thank you for posting that our alignment with God's will, is not a free-floating, whatever comes proposition. But a conscious "whole-hearted bending and merging." Sometimes, God's will is not immediately apparent in the affirmative, but I can know what is not his will, and that is not to try to change others. It is also not to try to force things, or make them happen with my designs or schemes. I can only work on myself.
I also acknowledge that we can't turn it over to God, "once and for all" or even each morning, but it is a constant reaffirmation and renewal. Just as we live one day at a time, one moment at a time, when we first get sober: we also turn to God, moment by moment, often having to start our day over, until it becomes our nature to Let Go and Let God. How often I have said, once and for all, or just for today--only to act impulsively when I feel baited or the target of harsh criticism later in the day.
It truly must be a conscious and deliberate bending and molding into his likeness, into his arms, into his Love and Light---each and every moment---until we can rest in the eternal arms of the Father, Mother, Holy Spirit, which is my Higher Power.
Thank you for your words of wisdom...I will carry them on my path today!
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