A Daily Spiritual Look At Life

[MajestyJo]

They say:

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Beauty is only skin deep.

Beauty comes from the inside out.

All my life I thought I was ugly! I could not believe that people thought I was attracted. If someone wanted to be with me they always had alterer motives or it was my personality they were attracted to, which is funny because for most of my heavey using years I was a first class 'itch.

If I adorned myself to reflect my heart, what would I wear - Anne Wilson Schaef


What a statement, makes you kind of think. In the past it would have been dangling earrings for sure, they made me feel light hearted and devil may care.

Make up for sure, and yet today my boyfriend says I don't need it because I have very few wrinkles and my skin is still quite firm. Mind you when I lose some of the fluid and weight I have been carrying, I have to do some toning up exercises. It depends on whether I want to look I am under 55 or over 55 whether I wear makeup, and who I am trying to impress. When I went to court with my sponsee I wore make up. The difference is today I don't have to put it on with a pallet knife.

One of the greatest freedoms in recovery was the day I could stop wearing clothes to hide my figure and could accept it for what is was. The day I tucked my shirt into my jeans was a miracle.

My dress code today is jeans, a turtle neck and a jacket. If you can get me out of that, I will put on a long skirted dress. I love hats. I like plain and simple. My sponsor said if you have recovery show it, so I like to keep it simple. I am not for flowers, lace, buttons and bows, I am denim, jersey, cotton and zippers.

I wear red, black, white, navy, green, gold, and brown, and grays. I am a fire girl who loves colors which connect her to Mother Earth. I do have blue in my wardrobe today, but for years it drained me of all colour and it is only age that allows me to wear it. Some people find it comforting and relaxing and for the most part all it did was remind me of my ex-husband and his family, so being able to wear it today is a big recovery step.

I think true beauty is when you walk into a room and no one notices what you are wearing.

This was posted on another site in 2004. Since then the blonde has gone and I am content to wear my gray. I still don't like the swelling, and I can't eat all the foods I use to eat because of diabetes, but the body is not bad for an old woman. You can't defy gravity forever and the wrinkles started to get a little deeper when I reached 65, although there are not that many all things considered. LOL!